To embark on a new adventure that changes the course of your life is certainly intimidating to say the least. That is where I am today. We have just moved across four states for my husband to begin his career for which he has been in school for eons it seems. I have always been the "worker" while he committed to his studies.
Since we moved, I have been on a leave of absence from my occupation. I actually don't know if I have a secure position in our new town even as I write this. It seems I have been shuffled to the side. My husband is starting from scratch. To put it mildly, we are completely unstable as providers for our family. So, how do we face each day? How do we continue our lives as usual for the sake of our children even though we have no control of the immediate future?
Simple words will have to answer those questions. Hope. Courage. Imagination. Memories. Ambition. Patience. Perseverance. Humor. Support. As an optimist, I consider these simple qualities of life to be enough to push us through this period of our lives. But, am I really an optimist? I doubt that, for I am far too cynical and worrisome to consider myself one who embraces a positive outlook in times like this. What am I? Perhaps a realist? Someone who is present in the circumstances at hand and can visualize the cause and effect relationship of her own actions? Someone who has a firm grasp on reality and yet does not freak out in a time of ambiguity? Perhaps. Or, am I just a woman who must keep on going no matter what for the sake of her family? I believe that is the true definition of who I am.
My family is what drives me, what makes me believe that every aspect of our lives will be better in time. And, in this interim, we will have to cherish the small wonders of our family. Milestones we are already witnessing: our children learning to read and loving it; our son losing his teeth; our daughter trying to ride her bicycle with no training wheels. What else could make us smile so much? Our family has so many moments in a day where we laugh and find happiness, so many moments where I feel proud to be the matriarch for this little group who obviously needs me. And, it is in this realization that I find joy and the strength to go on.
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I think you're missing "Faith"... not necessarily in a higher power, but in yourselves. You guys are obviously incredible people who care deeply about your family. Have a little faith in yourselves and know that you've always found a way to take care of each other and your little ones. From the pictures you've posted and the stories you tell, they seem like incredible little people and the two of you must be amazing parents.
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